My Confidence Glow Up Story | Modelpreneur Diaries

like you are your biggest critic, you are your biggest downfall. So battling myself—that was the hardest time in my life. But I know that that was also the best thing that could happen to me because building my confidence really was the key to everything. It was the key to my growth on social media, it was the key to my growth as a model, it was the key to my growth as a business owner—that's like the key to everything.

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Hi, Queens! Welcome back to my channel, Venance here, and in this video, I'm going to be sharing my glow-up—my confidence glow-up journey. If you are on a journey of becoming your most confident and successful version of yourself, make sure to subscribe to my channel and hit that bell so that you are notified every time I post a new video.

I used to be extremely shy. I used to be the girl that would hide. I wouldn't want to be the one that speaks up. I would be so unsure of myself, second-guess myself, always ask other people for opinions. I always felt like I was so unworthy of being seen. And over time, I completely transformed myself—not just in how I looked, but also in how I felt about myself and in how I carried myself, how I showed up online.

I feel like even online, the reason why I was not growing was because I was always so afraid. Afraid of what people were going to think. What are people going to think of my videos? What are people going to think of this, that? Just being so afraid of being myself.

Now, I have been a paid model, worked with amazing, amazing brands all over the world, been in magazines, started my own business as well, and built my digital brand. Putting myself out there and being more confident really, really helped me achieve that. Like, if I did not have the confidence to do it, there's no way I would have been able to do it. Because of that, I even had the confidence to help other people—to help other models, help other influencers also put themselves out there.

Like, I didn’t just wake up one day and I was confident. I didn't wake up and just feel like I knew how to do all these things. It's not something that you're born with; it's something that you learn. I always talk about it—confidence is something that you learn. It's not something that you're going to just wake up and say, "Oh my God, I'm confident!" No. It's something that you have to learn, and the way to learn is sometimes just to do.

But in this video, I'm going to give you the steps on how I was able to learn it and become that person—that other version of myself that I knew I already had in me. Okay? I already knew that I was that girl.

Okay, so let's take it all back. Let's take it back to 2019. 2019 was the year that I said, "I'm going to stop playing with myself. I'm going to start going out there. I'm going to start going to events. I don’t care how uncomfortable it feels. I don't care how awkward it feels to put myself out there." I wanted better for myself.

One of the events that I went to—this was when I was really, really pushing myself—I pushed myself to go to this one event. It was great, but I was still a little bit shy, trying to get out of my comfort zone, really meeting so many people. I remember there was one time that I got so overwhelmed I literally had to leave the event, go to the bathroom, and just recoup before coming back. I didn’t know what to say, and I was just on my phone, you know? And I hate that feeling.

Now, I don’t do that. Now, when I go to events, I literally don’t even want my phone. That year, I literally pushed myself to go and meet people face-to-face and stop hiding. It was really terrifying, but it’s literally a decision that changed my life.

Pushing myself also made me network. It made me meet people, it made me meet photographers who started taking my pictures, and I really, really started putting myself out there even more. I was going to different events, I started introducing myself, and I really started acting like I belonged there. I think I just started being delusional about it—like, I belong in this room. You know? Like, I belong in this room, people want to talk to me.

And I always made sure that I looked good. Like, one thing about me, I’m going to make sure I look cute as crap. Because when you look good, people are always going to talk to you. They're always going to ask where you got your shoes from, your outfit from, your hair, all of that.

I was always afraid to go up to people and talk to them, but when I looked good, I felt like people were coming to me instead of me going to them. That’s like a little secret for when you're at events. I feel like that really started everything for me. Because once I was able to be comfortable being in front of people, then it was really easy for me to be comfortable in front of a camera, be comfortable on social media, and post my pictures and stuff like that.

That was the start of my whole journey. I did this until I even hosted my own events. I hosted my first-ever event, which was Model Con—the first-ever Model Con in New York City. If you were there, you know! I hosted classes online with hundreds and hundreds of people. That really, really pushed my confidence and made me become an authority in what I was talking about.

Make sure you push yourself to go meet people and network because that is the one thing that is really going to build your confidence.

This one right here is a little deep, and it might be a little dark for some people, but I really, really struggled with my confidence. There were times when it was really bad. I was really insecure. I think this was around 2018—I even had suicidal thoughts. Okay, I hope this video does not get flagged, but I want to be super honest about it. That was probably the hardest year ever for me.

I started writing letters to myself. It just started because I needed to vent, but I felt like I had nobody to talk to. This is another key thing—if you ever feel like you need to talk to someone and you have nobody, just write to yourself. Write to yourself like you would talk to someone you really trust.

These letters—I would just tell myself how I was feeling at the moment, what I wanted in life, things like that. I would talk to myself like I was talking to a best friend. I did this, and every time I felt down, I would look at my letters and be like, "Babe, look at where you were in 2018. You were down, babe. Your confidence was bad."

Look at where you are now. Look at how you feel. Look at everything that you’ve accomplished. I read my letters, and they make me feel so good. They remind me how much I’ve accomplished in this life.

I read them every single year, and I write a new letter. Usually, I do it at the end of the year, and it makes me feel so good. It makes me feel so accomplished. It shows me how much I’ve grown and where I’m going.

After that part of my life, when I first wrote my first letter to myself in 2018, I took a break from everything. I stopped every single thing that I was doing. Taking that year off really helped me focus on what I really wanted. Like, "V, what do you really want?" I figured it out.

When I came back, I’m telling you—that’s when I blew up. I blew up everywhere. I blew up on social media. Everything was just growing.

Battling yourself—you are your biggest critic. You are your biggest downfall. So battling myself—that was the hardest time in my life. But I know that it was also the best thing that could happen to me because building my confidence really was the key to everything. It was the key to my growth on social media, my growth as a model, my growth as a business owner. That’s the key to everything. I feel like if you don't have the confidence to do any of these, like, you won't be able to do it or you're going to start, but then you're going to stop because you're going to stop yourself. And that's why I'm so freaking passionate about helping other women build their confidence. It's so important. If you don't have that confidence, like, I'm so passionate about this because I feel like if you don't have this, you have nothing. You literally have nothing. Let's talk about how I build my confidence glow-up. The first thing is that I changed how I saw myself. Understand that confidence is inside before it actually shows outside. Confidence is not loud, and it starts inside. Instead of picking myself apart and being negative to myself, I started affirming myself. I started telling good things about myself. I started being positive about myself. I stopped waiting on other people for validation. I think this is another thing: you don't trust yourself, so you're not confident in a lot of your decisions. Stop asking people for validation. If you want to wear that outfit, you don't have to ask your mom or your best friend if it looks good. Know that it looks good if you like the outfit. And if somebody else says that they don't like it, who cares? You like the outfit, right? The way that you see yourself determines how you show up in the world. You have to see yourself as that girl. You have to see yourself as, like, the next version of yourself. If you don't, then you're going to go into the world, and people are going to see that you are insecure. People are going to see that you are not confident in yourself. So, make sure that you see yourself in the best possible way and you see yourself in that next-level higher, your higher self, because that's how other people are going to see you as well. Dress like your higher self. What does the next version of yourself dress like? The next version of yourself makes six figures. Like, what does the next version of yourself wear? It doesn't have to be expensive stuff. It could just be better things, more quality. Maybe you don't wear Shein anymore. You know me, it's like I always like to feel powerful. I like to feel sexy. So, the next version of myself feels powerful, and she feels sexy. So, those are the outfits that I'm going to wear. When I started content creation, I didn't start thinking of it to be perfect. I just started. I think this is another big mistake that a lot of us do because we don't feel confident enough is because we wait until we have the perfect camera. We wait until we have the newest iPhone. We wait until we have all these things, but you don't need all those things. You just—the only thing you need is your confidence. That's it. You only need your confidence. I promise you, if you have the confidence to do it, you don't need anything else. That's all you need. The thing that you are scared to do, you need to do it anyway. Just do it. That's how you're going to build confidence. You don't build confidence by waiting and then starting when you're ready. You build confidence by starting. You build confidence by not knowing. You just start doing it. That's how you're going to build that confidence. There's going to be a point where you're going to have to stop caring because people are either going to like you or hate you, you know? But it doesn't matter. There's always going to be someone who hates you. There's always going to be someone who has something negative to talk about you. So, you just got to say, "eff it" and just start and not care what people think. I promise you that, like, confidence is not about having it all figured out. It's just about showing up even when it's scary. Thank you so much for watching this video. Thank you so much for coming to my Modelpreneur Diary. Let me know if there are any other videos you want me to talk about or anything else you want me to talk about. Comment down below and be part of my Modelpreneur community, the Modelpreneur Member Circle, where we go a little bit deeper about these types of conversations and I help you more build your confidence. I help you with just a lot more. So, make sure to comment below, like this video, and share it with your friends. Thank you so much for watching, and I'll see you in my next video. Bye, Queen. muah!